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Monday, April 16, 2012
SATURDAY NIGHT
Scenario:
My cousin Jerry picked up my papa, mama (half paralyzed) and little sis Jenny and brought them to Moncayo for my grandma’s death anniversary. I was left alone because I was so sick that I even never report to the office. I’m just having my rest.
(Night came…all alone in the house)
Lights are all off… Zzz… Zzz.. Zzz..
I lied on my right side…hugging my pink pillow… Amidst my sound sleep, I felt like someone is hugging me from my behind oh so so so tight that I can’t breathe… I want to scream but I can’t! He seemed so strong that I can’t move. It felt like his head’s behind mine and when I tried to reach him and tried to take him away -I hold nothing…. Suddenly I felt like some one is sucking my right nips… Oh my! It felt so real… If it’s only on my mind or just part of hormonal changes then how come that it’s only on the right? Nope! LOL It’s not that I want it both but I was just thinking… I tried all my force… I was so scared and thought I can’t get out...then I remember God… I asked for His help…hoping that this time maybe He’ll help me. Then it disappeared…by then I can hear the TIKTAK of my clock… I switched the lights ON… It’s past 12 midnight… I felt so sleepy but I’m afraid to go back to sleep so I did everything –jog, write, scan pages, etc…. ‘til it reaches dawn.
I’m so scared… I think I want to believe on what my Ex border in the next door said –that like two guys were using her when her husband is not around. But, she can’t see and all she had was to cry and cry. I don’t want to believe but it happened to me…
Today is April 17, 2012. Two nights passed by and glad that the bad guy never came back. Shah was right… Maybe it’s just part of my being so tired.
I think last night is better compared to yester NIGHT too that I dreamed like having a gun shot on my head (by my self) but I’m quite pretty sure that it’s a pure dream...not like what I had that Saturday night – it’s the worst night mare I guess…. Why guess??! ‘cause I’m not sure if it’s a night mare… It feels so REAL!!!! =’((
Thanks to my cousin Jomel and his wife Lyn2x for coming at nights just to stay with me at home ‘coz I’m still so scared. Mama, papa and my sis were still not around. The last two nights, I never lied on my right side too, I sleep on my left side for the best blood flow…and prayed… =} still I keep my self awake at 12 midnight and get back to sleep at dawn…and NEVER switched the lights OFF. =<
My cousin Jerry picked up my papa, mama (half paralyzed) and little sis Jenny and brought them to Moncayo for my grandma’s death anniversary. I was left alone because I was so sick that I even never report to the office. I’m just having my rest.
(Night came…all alone in the house)
Lights are all off… Zzz… Zzz.. Zzz..
I lied on my right side…hugging my pink pillow… Amidst my sound sleep, I felt like someone is hugging me from my behind oh so so so tight that I can’t breathe… I want to scream but I can’t! He seemed so strong that I can’t move. It felt like his head’s behind mine and when I tried to reach him and tried to take him away -I hold nothing…. Suddenly I felt like some one is sucking my right nips… Oh my! It felt so real… If it’s only on my mind or just part of hormonal changes then how come that it’s only on the right? Nope! LOL It’s not that I want it both but I was just thinking… I tried all my force… I was so scared and thought I can’t get out...then I remember God… I asked for His help…hoping that this time maybe He’ll help me. Then it disappeared…by then I can hear the TIKTAK of my clock… I switched the lights ON… It’s past 12 midnight… I felt so sleepy but I’m afraid to go back to sleep so I did everything –jog, write, scan pages, etc…. ‘til it reaches dawn.
I’m so scared… I think I want to believe on what my Ex border in the next door said –that like two guys were using her when her husband is not around. But, she can’t see and all she had was to cry and cry. I don’t want to believe but it happened to me…
Today is April 17, 2012. Two nights passed by and glad that the bad guy never came back. Shah was right… Maybe it’s just part of my being so tired.
I think last night is better compared to yester NIGHT too that I dreamed like having a gun shot on my head (by my self) but I’m quite pretty sure that it’s a pure dream...not like what I had that Saturday night – it’s the worst night mare I guess…. Why guess??! ‘cause I’m not sure if it’s a night mare… It feels so REAL!!!! =’((
Thanks to my cousin Jomel and his wife Lyn2x for coming at nights just to stay with me at home ‘coz I’m still so scared. Mama, papa and my sis were still not around. The last two nights, I never lied on my right side too, I sleep on my left side for the best blood flow…and prayed… =} still I keep my self awake at 12 midnight and get back to sleep at dawn…and NEVER switched the lights OFF. =<
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
‘til where, ‘til when
And how to handle this flaming pain
I dig inside, it’s too much dry
Drought, but tears are still alive.
Soul keeps on searchin’, keeps on wanderin’
On a dreadful cave, sobbing like a slave
You left the feelings that once survive
Mis......? Or, you just hide…
Now you say it’s no longer me
Thorns of memories changed me completely
No time to blame, don’t be ashamed
You draw the sword, then play the game!
On the crystal crib in where I lie
‘cant hear my yell concealed by lyre
With the music of duel I danced lovingly
But luckily I awoke from duplicity.
How I wish to be cured before the dusk
I’m tired to dream w/ tears at task
I’m drowned and locked by fantasy
“I’m not yet ready...” the key answered me.
And how to handle this flaming pain
I dig inside, it’s too much dry
Drought, but tears are still alive.
Soul keeps on searchin’, keeps on wanderin’
On a dreadful cave, sobbing like a slave
You left the feelings that once survive
Mis......? Or, you just hide…
Now you say it’s no longer me
Thorns of memories changed me completely
No time to blame, don’t be ashamed
You draw the sword, then play the game!
On the crystal crib in where I lie
‘cant hear my yell concealed by lyre
With the music of duel I danced lovingly
But luckily I awoke from duplicity.
How I wish to be cured before the dusk
I’m tired to dream w/ tears at task
I’m drowned and locked by fantasy
“I’m not yet ready...” the key answered me.
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