Angels don't save...

Almost 17 years ago, that was early in the morning, there was a child sitting in a table (with a stick of match in her mouth, sipping its carbon) while watching those children climbing in a Guava Tree. Her papa came and said, “I have to go now so be a good girl.” And so she nodded. (it’s her papa’s day shift of duty again)


She has the greatest parents ever –a tough father and a sweet, disciplinarian but kinda tactless, high-tempered mother.

As usual all housemates were busy so she got out from that open kitchen…. She noticed a dying dragonfly on the garden and tried to touch it when somebody said, “ Don’t worry… Angel gonna save her…”.

She remained in silence- recalling the day when she tried to escape from evil and her soul yelled for an angle’s help but nobody came… That’s the worst day of her life…

She touched the dragonfly's wings carefully… ‘rubbed it gently… Then another kid asked, “Do you believe in angels too?” And, she answered, “ ..angels don’t save.”



I’m not writing this just because I have a story to tell nor to imply something against angels for I do believe in angels too… Angels are those children… They need our attention and affection…

They might be victims of crime that parents didn't notice for being so busy… They might wanted to tell something but were just taken for granted… They were just ignored…

“..some victims are able to express their feelings without difficulty. Others who appear to be emotionally calm may be masking feelings that later erupt in a delayed reaction.”
-by Manfreda

Angels don’t save…but rather be saved…

TEAeehehehe w/ Miss Divine Grace

It’s kinda late in the evening when I sat down holding a cup of tea. Suddenly I notice that someone’s knocking my phone… Somebody replied-it’s Chaka Doll!!! Wew! And so we talked and talked and talked… (Text I mean…lol)

So long… I mean, it’s unusual for me to text somebody for quite a couple of minute for now due to some economic sabotage… lol

But, last night, I did it w/ Chaka... Ehehehe…ooh so Divina Grasya she was!!! (that’s her family name)

“Bla…bla…bla…bla…”

And, I laugh when she stated that one of our supervisors and I were almost look- alike…. Whahahahaha!!! “If that’s the case, we must be carabaos...(of the same faces)”, I said.

I’m watching the “KangarooJack” movie thing while texting then… Hey! Don’t be amazed for I’m always late in everything… ehehehe…lol


It’s when that big guy on that movie almost fall down “sa bangin” (Unsa gani na sa English??? Lol) Dictionary please…lol ehehehe….

It’s when that big guy on that movie almost fall down… I then shout, “He’ll gonna fall!” But hey, there’s no big guy who fell… It’s my cup! The cup of tea that I put beside me instead of putting it on the table… (blamed be the texting…joke) My very lil sister became the first suspect for that when I was the real criminal…ooh poor lil sis…’nyways she’s cuter than mehehehehe…

‘mind you… it’s a good cutting! And, I think acrylics will bring out the best of it! Hmmmm… Poor mama’s cup, ‘need to live a new lifestyle… a new look…


Presence of mind is a must…
Or else possibilities to fall might arise w/out the signal…
TEAeehehehe

Better live new life after death…lol

Oiest… It just so happened that I told Chaka ‘bout this KARABAW site para bibo!!! And, it just so happened that I also told her ‘bout the best writer/director/editor’s site – http://www.direkjap.blogspot.com. And then she asked, “si jap? Asa na xa?” then I told her “his in Qatar right now and surely, you’ll gain a lot of info and learning if you’ll visit that page…”

‘ngon xa “nice baya kaayo to si sir jap…” visit daw xa sa page ASAP ky namiss daw nya…ehehehe.


Sir Jap!!! Regards daw wui ngon Chaka… TEAeehehehe…

..I hate her.

She has the soul,
the spirit,
the strength.
Others look up to her.
And, love her...

BUT, I hate her w/ all my soul that only the bitch's spirit can explain... Still, I can't blame her for I was out of plan, I just forcibly exist...lol
I still remember when my grandma (R.I.P.) told the story 'bout my birth... it's kindahahahahahaha thing but real... I can't blame the good lady anyway, blame my self instead!!! Ooooohohosome...

'nyways... That's not the main reason why I hate her... It's for a reason that she even don't know. Maybe, I was just so unfair... For life somehow partly became so unfair... And 'til now, she can't get me... She still don't know me...

I really hate her w/ all my soul... BUT, I love her w/ all my heart... and I will always love her for giving me my good sisters...

--new...new...news--

One of my sisters is now a wedded wife... Manang jo (eldest sis & still single) left the country and got back to work again... And, a co-trainee in ROTC Summer Camp Training (RSCT)class-03-2003 died while taking the POTC and his body was recovered after 3days (that was during their river-crossing/Survival). Supposedly, he's an AFP Reserve 2Lt now but... Yeah... Life's like this...

KARABAW English--"the marriage proposal"

BOY: Will you be my wedding?

GIRL: Ahahahahaha!!!

BOY: What's laughing?

GIRL: Ehehe...Wrong Gramming... ehehehe

--adapted

Hmmm... Tomorrow, May 08, 2007 @ 3pm will be my sis' civil wedding and I'm so excited... ehehe 'just want you to know that you're all invited...

..to witness. lol

Tribute? ..to my mighty soldier. (online)

You-the hell’s fear, and I- the bitch in angel’s face… Angel? Naks!!! Hmmmp…lol
Joo still remember those days? ..when we’re younger and still fresh from WAR!!! toink

“SHOOT!” from you
“BULLZZZ EYE!!! from me

‘just miss those days…
Now, things are very much different and I must admit that I felt like crystal sword cut one of my wings.
I still have no guts and I think that there will be no ways to put these into a conversation with you… That’s why I’m here. Hoping someday, you’ll read this… If you only could….
Believe me, I’m on my way of forgetting you for I knew what the words “ ...Judith, I’m on the verge of marriage…” mean, as you answered when I reminded you of something, and I must understand.
You guys looked so happy together and all I thought is that I’m prepared enough… But duh!!! ..crazy to tell that I cried each night, thinking that Dec. 30 is coming -your wedding day (last year). Haha! Real crazy! Assuming that those promises also worth something for you! Lol yay
It’s not that I’m not happy for you… It’s just that I’m used to have my Dr. Love, Counselor and Mighty Soldier in one –always there to listen and didn’t allow even a single word nor question to escape.
Joo know that you’re the one who made me believe that even OFFLINE MESSAGES could hit me with all those comforts, comments, and answers ASAP? You’re one of a kind…
Thanks for sharing with me the heartaches that we both experienced, especially the pain of having “Long Distance Relationship (LDR)” –as you have yours and as I have mine…
Sorry if it seemed that I’m so self-centered then and if there were times that I’ve been so insensitive and did the kinda AWOL thing on some pages…. I didn’t mean to hurt you. It’s just because of some personal reasons that are hard to explain…
Enough for those pains and heartaches…. I’m okay now! Whehey! ..I just found my self reading your blog lately…
Not so long when we talked about family…lol. Not so long when we made the “promises of good friends”. Not so long when you’re still searching for Miss Right, when you’re sister got married and I asked, “ ..how ‘bout you…?” and you answered, “When the hell sucks!”.
NOW, you finally find Heaven on Earth and you deserve such goodness! –A good and beautiful wife, and a baby boy on August… I bet he’s a virgoan too just like his tita online! Lol
Sai Loreen and I were very much excited to see that good child on your page soon… While maybe, I’ll stick to stay single as I’ve told you then… for nobody gonna love me…huhuhuhu… lol
We only met each other online and I knew that I never own even a single dot in your life… However, please remember that you’d always be a very big part of my real world… Someday, if ‘be given a chance to have my own beautiful family (more or less 10 years from now), I’ll tell my future 2 kids ‘bout the story of the mighty soldier on the line… (I'l be with my beloved hero then of course! lol)
Good thing you follow your heart… Congrats for the upcoming promotion Drill Sergeant and most especially for being a good husband and a father soon…
Someday, you’ll gonna write a book as you wished… ‘hope I can also read that… lol.
Stories of war among nations (including Baghdad's...) + personal touch goin back to Utah might cost so expensive!!! hmmm…So, I have no other choice but to steal ‘em so better watch out!!! Lol

As I’ve told you… TARGET UR AIMS!!! Of course, you can always do that with your honey and that lil angel…

Thanks for spending time to those nonsense and stupid things that I've shared (even if you're kinda tired, just not to offend me) Thanks for respecting me… Thanks for everything...
Thanks so much my mighty soldier… You know who you are…lol

DRAMA EFFECT!!! Lol

Simply me,
Pinay Warrior

“Pippip…! Pushcart’s coming!”


‘just miss those days –when someone understands me… In times like this…


“The leaves of trees just keep on falling…
Lesson???
You can’t always keep someone to your self forever…
Sometimes, you have to let go.
Yet, You have to remain standing…

Like trees do... =')
-adapted

-->>CLICK HERE

My 1st Time in Jail

“Walls of Expressions”, that’s what I called it- with the writings of their so called “Mislead Individuals” lol… I even saw the rat! Yeah, the rat on the toilet area that was covered only with a kinda green shower curtain…

“Welcome to my new place Gang!” (bed room & toilet room located in a four-cornered area) Auntie Anne said – a family friend. She’s there for more than six months as I’ve heard but it’s the first time that I visited her. Whatta sympathy! (It’s just that I’m locked with those promises of employment training and other stuff that somehow turned me into nothing—for now…) She’s charge with illegal recruitment and still waiting for the upcoming trial.

“..I really can’t accept it at first for in the first place, I didn’t expect that I’m into an illegal deed. I still haven’t recruited anyone and I really can’t understand why is it that those persons who invited me to join their business were still roaming outside while I’m still here inside this hell…”

And I really can see the pain in her eyes while telling these and so I said, "Can I stay here with you tonight?", then she laughed and asked, “Why didn’t you invite me on your graduation?” (That was Oct. last year and she’s already in prison then! Lol, high kidding Auntie Anne…lol) I paused for a while...kinda felt useless?! lol... Then in straight face I said, "If I'll get a REAL job, we'll go out on a disco!!! ajeje

We ended our talk with laughter but I left her with teary eyes... But I know she's better now and even tougher!!!

That was my first time in jail but I've been in prison for quite long - "a prisoner of my own death march..."

Just like her I knew that someday I'll hit true freedom... How I wish..."We planned a lot but sometimes our plans don't wanna be with us... It's simply because everything has its own purpose.... So que sera, sera..."

and que sierra, sierra...